short ‘entry’.

-new layout almost done. give me another weekend. then, entries like this will go away and i’ll make this blog more ‘legit’… with semi-academic rantings.
-classes going well. w00t.
-water polo’s started. tournament soon. cool. yea.
-asshat homophobe prof that i am quite in lust with for his amazing teaching skilllzzzz sued the dean of my school for ‘age discrimination’… everyone giggled. (are you shitting me?) also happens to be my absolute favorite professor of all time… EVER. i’m a finer musician because of him, and i never even touched the piano! (you’re not supposed to do that while playing that piece of furniture, right?)
-girlyman + two religion classes = brain!kaboom.
-went for lunch in exton a few days ago. the hostess, addressing us as ‘two fine gentlemen’,  asks my 21 year old girlfriend ‘do you need a kids’ menu, young man?’ and most likely thought that i was either her daddie, mommie, babysitter or a pedophile (probably the last). our server ended up being a quite-out-of-the-closet one-time classmate of mine who seemed to be amused. gf goes for a piss, hostess tells her that she’s in the ‘wrong’ bathroom and tries to show her where ‘big boys pee’. hostess’ head goes kaboom when gf momentarily unbinds chest, revealing lack of boy!parts… spends rest of our lunch apologizing and going all ‘ma’am… how may i help you ma’am‘ on us… then, asks if we’re sisters because we look alike. upon me saying ‘my beautiful girlfriend’… insists even more to secure gender binary. we giggle.
ok, i get it that your concept of gender is now totally fucked up and you need to reassure yourself as being ‘normal’ and us as whatever, but still very “female” (despite the quite intentional chest binders and attempts to remove physical trace of said-femaleness)… but… is it really all that necessary to make me feel uncomfortable because you are not so secure in your side of the gender binary? please, don’t EVER call me ‘ma’am’. ugh! i am no one’s ‘ma’am’, although my gf is my ‘man-master’. hah. and this is why i generally do not like people. i know she was meaning well and all that happy stuff… but yea. insisting is only going to make me more queer to you while totally making me not queer at the same time, at least in your mind. ohhh humanity, i love you! you amuse me much!
on the bright side, passing did not take much effort. and if our server was not a familiar face, she would’ve totally played the ‘i’m a little boy’ thing and asked for alcohol.
-the week got even better when i took my gf to the ER at asscrack o’clock a few nights ago. again, another familiar face was her technician. yea. it’s like there’s a rainbow over her head or something. at least it was an amusing moment because said technician happens to be a total smartass. (but the good kind that’s awesome.)
despite that she was twitching and curled up in a ball of pain, it’s ‘probably really bad heartburn’… that lasted almost a week and with a few nervous breakdowns in the middle. and i’m supposed to love people… why? at least my pretty is OK and moving around again. caffeine is a miracle drug, just sayin’.

ok, off to learn about cults/new religious movements. cool. perhaps a preview of my new layout later when i have to actually test it live instead of with xampp. schweet. i hope i get del the proudly homicidal bus driver again. not kidding, my face was about two inches from a tree this morning on my failed venture to class… ohh wets chester! you’re kyoote!

dabbling/new wp theme

i’m dabbling in the creation of a new wordpress theme for use on my domain (and this blog).
so far, i have an idea and a sketch of a layout done.
i also have a decent working knowledge of (x)html/css (i’ve been using/keeping up-to-date with the latter pretty much since i was a kid), PHP (ughhhh), mySQL (which, despite not really needing it much if at all, i am learning for fun) and also a bit of jQuery and javascript (again, learning for my own fun) at my disposal… and i’m pretty decent with graphics as well.
i was (ashamedly) a script kiddie for a bit growing up… but i think i’ve grown into a webdesign hobbyist/enthusiast over the years… i’ve enjoyed working with code for as long as i could remember… and with a new year, i’m using my free time to work with wordpress… it’s going to (obviously) take me a while for this new layout, but my hopes are to have fun and actually design something more difficult/complex than a simple html/css website. i’ve been doing those seemingly forever and can pull out a box with a couple of other boxes inside of it out of my ass with little effort.
my only ‘real’ goal is to create a layout using elements that i personally want to use.

i’m also going to take the time to rethink some things for my domain and clean up this blog — especially that damn tags list! maybe i’ll turn this blog into something more academic… go back to displaying poetry? writing? who knows?
it just won’t be a space for ‘personal’ rambling nonsense. maybe a sporadic concert ‘review’ once in a while, sure… but it will NOT be a ‘look at how bad i screwed everything up now!!’ blog. i’d love to have a dynamic resume/portfolio up some time before march, for instance. the original intent of purchasing this domain was for me to have a space on the web to pursue and work out other interests besides my life’s dream of creating actual, live music. i’ve had a strong passion for other media, especially web media, since i first got introduced to HTML when i was about 12. i also almost ended up being an english major at some point. digital media is art and i enjoy creating art. and that is what 2010 will bring me.

happy new year!

Tags: 'business' stuff, forward is calling, site-related

top ten albums of 2009…

a while ago, in june, i made a post about the top ten albums half-way through the year…
so here is my updated list of favorites. these albums are the ones that blew my mind or i couldn’t stop listening to this year. it’s was pretty easy to pick for once, as most of my favorites didn’t release albums this year… and one album just blew everything else away. (maybe that’s a bad thing, letting some fine work slip from my radar?)
i think i’ve been doing one of these since my first journal in middle school, so i guess it’s kind of a tradition? yea. we’ll go with that. i might do a shorter one of these tomorrow for my favorites of the decade…

1. enter the haggis – gutter anthems
this album, released in march, is easily 2009’s best album, if not one of the best albums released the past decade. i can’t say enough in praise of gutter anthems. it’s a really mature album from a band i grew up listening to/following around, and a nice brainf*ck/eargasm. eth is a band that i first encountered as a cute little quirky/dorky canadian celtic punk band with an interesting instrumentation that was jamming their faces off. their instrumentation still *shouldn’t* work, but it does. this year, they totally grew up out of nowhere and did nothing but blow my mind constantly. (they’ve been doing that for years) i can’t decide if it was their rage against the machine cover (with bagpipes) or acoustic cameos. or how most of gutter anthems evolved on stage since craig downie’s brief stint with a saxophone at the 2008 celtic fling. while still having hints of their celtic punk/rock roots, they’ve grown into a really progressive and eccentric sound. and they have incredible showmanship and energy to back up their awesome work (as if their work needed any help? ^_^) there’s not one song on this album that i don’t like *something* about. it opens with an organ/pipes intro and closes with eth’s signature style of instrumental awesomeness in alternating 7/8 and 6/8 (broken line) with a bunch of fine songs that showcase their musical diversity and personalities in between. and brian buchanan’s instrumental credit list in the liner notes? yea. did i mention that these guys can double like woah? craig downie is the most quirky/unique wind doubler out there. the thing i must say that i love most is how this album just shouldn’t make sense, yet all of the songs just *fit* with each other.
i’ll just stop rambling now and tell you to go listen to this frigging album!

2. the decemberists -hazards of love
ok… the decemberists’ 2009 release is incredible. it’s an hour-long “rock” opera about a woman named margaret who has fallen in love with william, a shape-shifter and the crazy adventures that happen with other characters such as an evil rake and jealous forest queen. the instrumentation on this album is absurd. there’s slide guitar, banjo, accordion, pedal steel guitar, harpsichord, strings and a bunch of instruments that *shouldn’t* make any sense together… even better? the genref*cking that hazards does is a brilliant mix of folk, folk rock, rock, prog rock, metal and country, just to mention some, and they pull it off flawlessly. colin meloy and jenny conlee did something incredible with this album. seeing it performed live at philly folk fest was probably one of the best performances i’ve ever witnessed. so powerful. i think i’m still recovering, but we can also blame ETH for that one, as it’s their fault for blowing away the rest of my brain that day… the very little that colin meloy left. i get shivers listening to hazards of love 2 (wager all). other sections that also stand out (ok, the story as a whole does) are annan water, the rake’s song and the wanting comes in waves/repaid. i get shivers listening to repaid.. as the alto, shara worden, has a frigging powerful voice… and she can *belt* like woah. this is my favorite decemberists album, but i don’t think it’s the perfect album for a first-time listener.

3. the young dubliners - saints and sinners
released early in the year, february, saints and sinners is the young dubs’ finest. some damn good irish rock here. i want to dance my ass off every time a song from this album comes on my ipod. it’s really fun, slightly serious (eh, not really) and has some pretty catchy tunes on it. i can’t get backseat driver out of my head no matter how hard i try. the title track is pretty kickass as well. young dubs never fail to deliver fun and a good time. i was just pissed that i missed them at bam margera’s bar this year because i had an orchestra concert. hopefully they’ll be back there in 2010. i’ve seen them once and they know how to work a stage and be a fine show to party at. so yea. listen to saints and sinners.

4. mute math - armistice
this album, released in august, is some pretty awesome alt-rock. the rhythm section on this album is incredible and sets the tone for the album right away with the nerve. it pushes through the entire album. the vocals are tight. the instrumentals are just… mind-blowing. this album is just *tight*. the last track, burden, is an awesome last track. it’s got a really catchy melody and some fine instrumentals. and their lyrics? awesome. armistice is a well-written album lyrically and instrumentally. it’s comforting to know that fine alt and prog rock is still being written and mute math is an excellent example.

5. lacuna coil – shallow life
lacuna coil’s most recent attempt. another band i grew up listening to, one of the first bands i ever got into. italian symphonic/gothic metal band with cristina scabbia’s incredible mezzo voice at the lead and andrea ferro on background vox. cristina and andrea sound incredible. it’s not my favorite coil album, and it’s not the most mind-blowing thing i’ve heard…. but it’s different. i like their sound and new direction, but parts of this album feel too forced. i enjoy this album.

6. the von bondies – love, hate and then there’s you
an indie/alt rock band that i’ve gotten into the past few years. this is a pretty cool album, but it reminds me too much of their last one. it’s enjoyable, happy music. chancer and modern saints are my favorite tracks. their sound is interesting and fun. i think that’s what i like about it… and their drummer doesn’t suck. i really enjoy this album.

7. butterfly boucher – scary fragile
i just can’t stop listening to this album. it’s addicting folk/alt-rock. it’s really catchy and shows off butterfly’s versatility as a musician. she plays all of the instruments and sings all of the vocals on this album. she also shows a maturity from flutterby, her first album. i guess my biggest/only problem with it is that it is too short; a little bit over a half hour. but it’s not length that matters most, it’s the work… and she creates some pretty fine music. my favorite track is to feel love. it’s so angry, reminding me a bit of aimee mann or maybe tori amos. part of bitter song sounds a lot like the slow section of radiohead’s paranoid android, or at least the tune does. i’m not sure if it was intentional… but it’s brilliant. it’s the final track on the album and a really interesting way to end the album

8. steven pasquale -  somethin’ like love
ok… i generally don’t like jazz. but i *love* steve pasquale. dilemma!  so, in this album, we have a pretty-good-but-still-higher tenor pretending to be a baritone. this album is so low on my ‘top ten’ list because i can’t get over the fact that he can sing a lot better than he does on this album. it’s enjoyable background music… and his voice is still pretty freaking incredible… but i can’t put my finger around what i don’t love about this album count your blessings instead of sheep is cute… and his ode to his wife, tony winner laura benanti, is gorgeous… but it’s they all laughed that’s my favorite. it’s a cute little song about how society generally laughs at brilliance. but maybe it’s the jazz that gets to me… i just can’t get into jazz no matter what i do…or how much i love steve pasquale’s voice. it’s worth a listen.

9. metric – fantasies
i just love metric. and this album is some of my favorite indie rock. ohhh broken social scene, why the hell are y’all such an awesome super-group that keeps pouring out some awesome groups like metric? they’re one of the very few indie rock bands that i love with a chick singer. emily haines is a pretty awesome alto. this album is full of really catchy tunes with driving indie rock instrumentals. sick muse has been stuck in my head for a while. i can’t stop listening to this album. but thanks to ETH and the decemberists being so epic this year, fine albums like this one almost slipped off my radar. i’m sure that i’ll be listening to it more often in 2010.

10.dream theater - black clouds and silver lining
i’m sure you were wondering where dream theater was on this list.. (or not.) they’ve appeared on a lot of these lists… because they’re just epic. some really fine mind-blowing prog metal. mike portnoy and john petrucci are genius. this is one of their darkest albums. ok, i don’t really like some of their lyric choices this time at all… that seems to be the biggest criticism the album’s gotten from most listeners… but their instrumentals are mind-blowing, as they’ve always been, and this album’s best and most redeeming feature. they’re still pushing the limits of prog metal, even on their tenth album. but i can’t get past the lyrics and they’ve been bothering me since the release of this album. overall, one of my favorites this year. i can’t say it’s one of the best of the decade though. worth a few listens, yes… but good luck separating the lyrics from the rest of their work.

notable mentions

tori amos - abnormally attracted to sin
i frigging love this album. ok. enjoy. it’s still growing on me, seven months later. i’m not sure if i like the direction she’s been going in at all… i love the folkier sound of this album… and the prog rock influence… and the lyrics. not dying today is an awesome song. but i don’t like how her voice is becoming the primary focus. where’s the piano?? i’ve always loved her for doing some cool things with a piano. she’s sounding more like the october project meets pop… i think that’s what is still growing on me. she’s still evolving. so maybe this album will grow on me more. i don’t really dislike it…. but it’s memorable for this year. it’s good, but not incredible. some tracks stick out, but some are forgettable. it’s still worth a listen though.

sonata arctica – the days of grace
love this album. it’s really catchy. it’s nice symphonic metal. not my favorite sonata album… but it’s a good attempt. it’s… fluffly. sonata arctica is one of the first bands that i got into and they’re still creating some good music.

badly drawn boy – is there nothing we could do?
just released two weeks ago… i haven’t had enough time to listen to it enough to get a good feeling for it… but it’s probably better than dream theater’s album overall… and i am a huge dream theater fan. black clouds just didn’t do it for me lyrically… and badly drawn boy is a fantastic lyricist. so, we’ll see.

filter – the very best things
i love this greatest hits album… it’s a good intro to filter for new listeners and a nice retrospective of fine music for long-time listeners.

upcoming
some albums i’m looking forward to in 2010?
oh gawd, i’m gonna be broke really fast.

-barenaked ladies – all in good time. their second album as a quartet (the first was 1994’s born on a pirate ship) scheduled for release in march. after hearing some of the new work on youtube, i’m happy that my favorite band of ever can hold their own sans one of my heroes. i am beyond excited for this album.
-steven page : two albums… his ‘first’ solo album post-BNL (does vanity project count??) and the release of his art of time ensemble performance. also a re-release of the vanity project under his own name… it’s steven page… that’s the only reason i *need* to be excited about.
-dropkick murphys – hell yes. new album. whee!!
-lostprophets – the betrayed. recently got into them. should be a decent album.
-cold war kids – behave yourself. technically, it’s been released a few days ago… but not? i don’t get it, but i’ll probably give it a listen.
-patrick wolf – the conqueror. an artist that i’m just starting to get into.  i’m enjoying his songwriting style for how unique it is.
-vampire weekend – contra. another band i’m just starting to get into. i saw them at some festival or something like… two years ago and they’re pretty nifty.
-serj tankian- elect the dead symphony. i just love soad… so it has to be pretty good. and there’s a greek dude that’s credited with arranging it. and! there’s a song called beethoven’s cunt. win.
- rhapsody of fire – the frozen tears of angels. ok… i just love metal. specifically symphonic metal. *sticks tongue out*
-owen pallett – heartland. in his attempt to not get sued (after going as final fantasy for a good part of his solo career), he is releasing a new album under his own name. cool! he’s pretty awesome and this album will be sweet.
-massive attack – heligoland. i just frigging love massive attack.
-anathema – horizons. an album that didn’t get released this year that will surely be awesome.
-angels and airwaves – love. to be released on valentine’s day… cute. i’m just getting into them.
-tarja turunen – what lies beneath. tarja’s second solo album since getting kicked out of nightwish.
-tobias sammet’s avantasia – the wicked symphony/angel of babylon. i love tobias sammet. and a double album? yay!

Tags: 2009, albums, bands, music, pile of awesome, why music = life

‘i’m gagged and bound…’

‘…but i will not turn my whole life upside down.’

song: barenaked ladies — upside down

i don’t know… the irony in this song’s been bugging me for a few years. the main character wants to break free from whatever’s plaguing him and not have his world destroyed… but he wants to do this by keeping everything the same.
and this is besides the fact that steven page is a lyrical genius and these lyrics are to a messed up tango.

-as a side-project of fun… i’m notating all of the vocal lines to gutter anthems. i got bored with school-related things and thought that this would help my ear out… so far, i have most of litter done and typed in and started on cameos. i can crank out a song every two days or so.. and my goal is to get a majority of the vocal lines… perhaps piano, fiddle, bass or chords before christmas… but i’m having fun and not really pushing myself for a date or anything because i don’t believe in deadlines or due dates or whatever.
this little side-project is getting me really motivated to do other things… like practice. so yay.

and now, i’m done rambling.
the end. 

happy birthday to me…

i haven’t blogged in a while because i haven’t gotten the moment to!
so here’s a short entry…

school’s been keeping me busy.
and october’s kind of sucked so far.
like, sucky my-car-exploded on 10.13 sucked. well, my spark plugs did, but yea. close enough. it was probably life-threatening. but my dykesmobile is working mostly properly right now as long as i give it some loving that it deserves for being such a wonderful car!
other things… i think i’m doing pretty well in all of my classes. hopefully.
i also ended up joining the philadelphia freedom band. it’s a nifty little lgbtq/ally community band. those who know me even slightly know that i am a HUGE advocate for community music. and philly’s music ’scene’ has been severely lacking for years now. it’s pretty cool to have a group like that, showing philly’s awesome diversity. we’re playing at a glsen conference in jersey tomorrow and i’m kind of excited… despite knowing that i’ll probably have the irish floo.

other than that, october’s mostly been sad and blah… but screw the sad news!
i’ve been dating an amazing gal for a while now. i can’t really put it into words how amazing she is.
yesterday, i went to class only to come back to… a room full of balloons. 70+ bouncy balloons. i opened my door and started laughing my ass off. it was a pretty amusing surprise. anyone that fills my room with balloons is definitely an amazing person…. and well… my girlfriend’s level of cuteness is at a new level right now. she’s the most brilliant and most adorable and sweet and charming and incredible person i know.
and i think i melted typing that.

so yea. it’s my birthday. i really generally hate birthdays and holidays and any date that has ‘meaning’ assigned to it.
i’ve been cursed with some really shitty birthdays…
my 21st birthday was miserable. i guess because, in my mind, i had imagined the american glamourized birthday celebration for being a legal adult… the kind of celebration i’ve been to for many of my friends since. i was alone at midnight and hating myself, wishing i could do that bar-hopping-everyone-is-happy-to-laugh-at-the-drunk kind of thing. i know it’s very selfish of me, but that’s what i wanted. and i was pissed that my first legal drink was a shot of vodka that i bought myself the next morning. (who the hell buys themselves their first legal drink??)
i was crushed for days and i was crushed again at my senior recital when 20 people called me the morning of telling me they can’t make it anymore. it was a weird series of feeling alone and miserable and pretty worthless to the people i cared about and loved. i don’t really like to dwell on it… but since it’s my birthday and i’m allowed to complain. yea, i’m still pissed that the two events that i was looking forward to for many years ended up being two of the worst experiences i’ve ever had.

but yea. screw that!

because my 21st sucked so hard… i was kind of thinking that my 22nd will to.
but so far, it’s been pretty awesome.
and tonight shall be fun. my roomie is doing a shadow cast of rocky horror picture show in the gayborhood at the william way center. so my girlfriend and i are going to go see her perform and then chaos shall commence in the gayborhood.
those are my birthday plans. because i’ve come to realize that family is defined by love, respect and understanding… not blood. and, gawddammit, i have a pretty amazing family.

if you’re in philly tonight, call/txt me. i will be doing the hopping/frolicking thing in the gayborhood.
despite how badly everything’s been hurting lately… i feel oddly great right now. it’s a weird feeling that i just can’t quite place.

and dammit, the balloons surrounding me are making me die of cuteness.

‘am i the only one…’

‘…who loves when you leave your hair down in front of your eyes?’ – barenaked ladies

i don’t feel like saying anything about kiltmas except for the good things about it.
while i know that going was probably not the best decision, i would’ve regretted missing it even more. it was nice seeing my gents and a whole lot of old friends again… and scythian performing twice? would’ve been awesome to have been at  their sunday brunch at the tea room and their evening set the last day of kiltmas, but i sadly couldn’t stay.
leks wore raver goggles both nights… i’m serious. and they played gypsy fiddle… which is, for a lack of a better description, leks fedoryka being really virtuostic while the other three just stand there and look beautiful. oh, and he really puts drama into it. you can catch the performance [here] and see for yourself. mike’s faces make my life. (he’s the sexeh drummer to the left of the screen) i couldn’t stop laughing my arse off at the epic pile of WIN.
also awesome seeing the giant pile of haggis!heads there!
i also ended up at the brew a few times… more than i should’ve…. but i did practice some really good self-control. it was weird being there. i went alone on friday night, but ran into a bunch of people i forgot i was supposed to meet there… because i got lost in my headphones and sipping on a glass of steelworkers’… it is my favorite beer in the world. i never felt so alone before, and that is part of the reason i decided to come back to west chester early. i did manage to divorce myself from the brew enough to hang out at kiltmas though. my self-control was INCREDIBLE, for being at my first legal kiltmas. a few shots of whiskey and a couple glasses of steelworkers’. that’s it. i was really good.

while hanging around kiltmas, i ended up buying myself a new sgian dubh, a ceremonial dagger. i’m in love with the thing! but, more importantly… i found a cute little charm walking around the craft tents that i just *had* to get for someone special to me.
when i got back, she was waiting for me. and i left allentown around 12.30am, so you could only imagine what time i got here. it was insanely late.
and this is what i have to say about that beautiful one…: <3.
that is all.
well… and that she’s actually *heard* of the slightly obscure bands and musicians that i’ve been in lust with for a while.

but yeaaaa… i don’t know/care what else to write.

’soon enough, all of your hard work will fail.’

song: barenaked ladies — one and only

it’s been an interesting week or so…
it started pretty badly…
my parents, not realizing that i am a month shy of twenty-two and a legal adult, want me to change who i am to fit their old image of me, one that i never was and never will be. they’ve always had dreams of me becoming this perfect fashionista with long, flowing hair, beautiful dresses/gowns, a crap-ton of makeup and high heels. at first glance of me, i am clearly not that person. and i’ve shattered their dreams of who they want me to be, so much that they’ve gone batshit crazy and threatened to take away my car (a possession i value quite a bit, as i worked hard to be its proud owner and driver) if i do not become the WOMAN they want me to be by the end of this week. they expect me to give up my life and happiness for a vision of who they want me to be.
in their minds, a woman is of no value and is not ‘really’ an adult until she is married… and then she is whatever her husband wants her to be. [read more »]

‘of good old days when flags were raised…’

‘…and god was on our side against them all.’

i am quite against people who bring out their red, white and blues about four times a year. (memorial day, 4th of july, veterans day and 9.11)  they bother me. i usually end up playing our national march on these national holidays and days of rememberance, so it’s all there, in my face. and it’s disturbing!
i am also a pacifist, which is why i have a fundemental problem with religion. if the modern and commonly practiced religions preach peace, then why are wars fought in the name of a god? if you truly believe in a god who loves everyone, then why is it necessary to blow people up? killing is not an act of love. this is also why i can logically know that a god does not exist.
the quote in the title of this blog and the continuation is from a song in a short-lived 1988 off-broadway show (3 guys naked from the waist down) written by michael rupert called i don’t believe in heroes anymore. while the show’s plot is quite absurd, this [song] is well-written. the last phrase rings in my head from time to time. it’s about war and peace and god and it blows my mind.
growing up, i was told that ‘god’ didn’t pick sides. what the hell is so special about america that ‘god’ would be on our side against ‘the enemy’?
pacifism and christianity cannot coexist as long as wars are fought in the name of a country/god (there’s hardly any difference between the two, is there?)

growing up, i had very few teachers that are memorable or inspired me. today in 2001, i was sitting in my 9th grade honors english class at liberty high when a teacher that ended up being one of those few to inspire me walked in wearing a kilt to tell us to turn on the TV… as dubya had just been spotted with an upside down childrens’ book. i later found out that he would be my history teacher in the spring semester and that he was the advisor of the strategy club. (as well as being an west chester alumn, go figure) i distinctly remember him saying that a few planes had hit buildings and one was in pennsylvania. (schools had been put on lock-down in state, if i remember correctly, and we were not to leave that classroom)

eight years later and countless people i once knew back from “over there” disfigured, it irks me to know that it’s still going on and the sadness will only continue. and all of this because ‘god’ told dubya it was the right thing to do.
i would absolutely hate to be mr obama at this moment. he’s got a lot on his hands, and i honestly don’t think there’s much he can do. in a country where health is not necessarily important unless you are wealthy, that is quite disturbing.
it’s ok to disagree with the US government’s actions. it’s protected under the first amendment of the constitution. and what about the elastic clause? that’s also in the constitution to protect the people.
just don’t frigging wave a flag a few times a year so uncle sam doesn’t hate you. that’s unpatriotic.

god AND country cannot coexist if country is against “them”.

Tags: anti-war, country, god

one step forward, two steps back.

i can be a terrible person sometimes.
my momentary lapses of judgement tend to overshadow the rest of me. i also tend to be highly dramatic and over-exaggerate things out of proportion. that accounts for the majority of things.
sometimes, i do stupid things that could, at the very least of my worries, get me in a lot of trouble…
most of the time, it’s because i generally act on impulse and don’t think. i’ve lost loved ones to some of the same horrible choices i make more often than anyone should.
but before you continue to place judgement on me that i deserve… i need to share a story that’s been irking me my entire life. i’m not asking for praise or pity or ANYTHING… just a moment to hear me out.
i should point out, as a disclaimer, that things beyond this line are a bit depressing. so stop reading NOW if you don’t like that. [read more »]

september.

second day of classes…
i have a feeling that i’ll be either really into my classes, or totally bored to tears. (mostly the latter, sadly)
either way, i want a 4.0 this semester. badly. more than anything. and i think i can get it.
my hair is getting more of a reaction around here than it did in the lehigh valley, but it’s all been positive.
i’m settled into my apartment and mostly unpacked/moved in and adjusting back here has been nothing. it’s like i never left… i also got a hole punched into my eyebrow yesterday to celebrate. the parentals will undoubtedly flip, but i don’t really care. it’s nice having the jewelry back in my face. hopefully no one will dismiss me as being a waste of life for it. i doubt it’ll be the first thing people notice, as the 10mm plugs in my ears are rarely the first thing anyone notices. what can i say? i get bored of things quite easily. i needed to change my appearance some more.
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